But a few years later, she became intrigued by a position at Cotton Inc., a company that supports U.S. cotton growers and importers. Lukowiak explains that the move was motivated by the importance of sustainability, which is becoming increasingly relevant in today’s society.
For years, she says, manufacturers have focused on what is the cheapest material to make — manmade fabric such as polyester and acrylic. “And we’re paying the price on that. What is that doing to our environment? There are islands of clothing that just don’t break down. Natural fibers provide sustainability, biodegradability, and breathability.”
Everything she learned throughout her career — starting at Jefferson — seemed to be wrapped up in one neat package in this new job.
“There’s so much about going to school at Jefferson that impacts my life today. There are lessons that I learned about critical thinking, about being pragmatic when it comes to managing a project, your time, your investment in yourself,” she says. “There’s this need to understand all sides of the cube; it’s a very different world view.”
That ability to see the cube from all sides was an asset when she took on a very different job — one that came as a complete surprise to her: novelist.
Her book, “Does This Outfit Make Me Look Bald? How a Fashionista Fought Breast Cancer With Style,” was born of her battles with breast cancer — once at age 38 and again at age 44.
“You’re thrown into this world of having to make decisions very, very quickly about something you know absolutely nothing about,” she says. “It’s like drinking from a fire hose — it’s so much all at once and it is so colossally overwhelming.”
She says that even though she had a wonderful support system of family and friends, cancer is still a lonely journey. “You’re the one losing your hair, you’re the one recovering from surgery, you’re the one taking a leave of absence from your job.”
At the time, all the books on breast cancer she found were told from an older woman’s perspective and carried the message to slow down and take early retirement, and maintained that cancer was a gift.
“And I said, ‘Hold on, gifts make you happy; cancer makes you cry,’” she says. “It is not a gift, and you don’t have to think of it as one. You don’t have to be all zen about it. It’s okay to have a rotten day, it’s okay to have a rotten week, it isn’t easy.”
She adds that she was not ready to slow down and retire. At only 38 years old she still had too much more to do.
Trying to navigate the overwhelming intricacies of cancer as a young woman inspired her to start keeping a journal.
“I did it to make myself feel better, to be a little snarky, to make the pity party a fun pity party,” she says. “And in starting to write things down, I began to think about maybe somebody else could benefit from what I’m going through.”
It was never her intent to write a book; she was hoping to simply put some thoughts down for a pamphlet to leave at the doctor’s office to help other women like herself find their way through the cancer journey. But she soon had 80 pages written and knew it was too much for a pamphlet — it needed to be a book.
The book — in which Lukowiak asks questions such as “Will your nurses mock you if you wear mascara to chemo and you only have three eyelashes?” — became her passion project.
The self-described blogger, fashionista, tattooed rock ’n’ roll mama, and indie author describes her book as a “witty and okay-to-laugh-out-loud journey through the unmentionables of breast cancer.”
“My feeling was that if I help one other woman feel a little bit less alone in this journey, then everything I went through makes sense,” she says.
The book was published in 2012 and was offered through Amazon, Apple Books, and Barnes and Noble. To Lukowiak’s surprise it was a hit, and messages came rolling in on Facebook, LinkedIn, email, and the website set up by the publisher.
Soon she had a whole network of women taking their own cancer journey with the help of her book. She calls the group of survivors “the best club that nobody wants to be a member of.”
Lukowiak, who is also on a national registry for cancer survivor speakers, often gives talks at American Cancer Society events and support communities, as well as at magnet high schools focused on medicine.
“I’m happy to share my story of resilience, humor, and how style can carry us through even the hardest chapters of our lives.”